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15/07/15 0

Self Contemplation : Think.

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Cogito Ergo Sum. I think, therefore I exist. - Rene Descartes.


I enjoy thinking deeply lately.
Not because I'm smart.
Not because I'm knowing too much.
Not because I like to brag over my thoughts and like to show it up on my social medias. (I know I know, I'm being such a nosy and noisy for updating so many gibberish statuses these days. Sorry.)

I'm not even sure for how long I've misused my brain up till now. 
Well, I know I never really use my brain to think and make sense properly from the start. Lol, such a pity human being. (Wait, am I really human after all this time? Interesting.)
I never be the smartest in my class back in my high school days. At least I've never felt that way. Because yes, grades can't really guarantee your actual skill, honey. I never believe with my grades. But at least I should've thanked them in first place for getting me a place to study in college later. I passed exams and tests but never really knew what I've learned. Quoting Albert Einstein that said "Education is what remains after one has forgotten what one has learned in school.". What really remains in my head after school years? I'm not saying nothing at all, ok the theories and stuffs still got place in my brain. BUT the thing that really matters I guess is the education of SKILLS that remain in one's brain. The application of the skills that really matters, after all this time. See? School has taught nothing but the skill of being a good copy machine. I'm not really learning. I guess that's what makes most of schools failed to educate us. They're not really try to educate us. All they did were just making us as robots with good memory skills, not debating and elaborating argument skills. We never really taught to think.

 I guess that's why training my brain for thinking has been my favorite thing to do after school years because yes :
1. It's pretty new and fun thing to do for me lately (sadly and ironically).
2. Call it a self improvement for me.

 Ok I know this is just sad and very humiliating for me as a human being who never really think properly before. But late is always better than never right? Ok I sound so cheesy and defensive rite nao wow you're so helpless, kid.
Sorry for gibberish thought on 3 AM in early morning. Have a pleasant last fasting day in this year. 

 Cheers.

20/06/12 0

Daily Design : Hiks.

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , , , , , , , ,


Hiks.
Adobe Photoshop/Photoscape.
06/06/2012.





27/01/12 0

Daily Design : Oxymoron.

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , , , , , ,


Oxymoron.
Corel Photo Paint/Adobe/Photoscape.
27/1/2012.

30/12/11 0

Daily Design : Cat-gasm.

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , , , , , ,

Belakangan ini gue lagi suka bgt sama kucing.
Lebih tepatnya sih... Suka lagi. Ah, jadi inget Pinom kan. Pinom? 


Waktu gue masih kelas 1 sd, gue pernah punya 2 kucing peliharaan. Pinom & Tilon. Btw, mereka berdua punya nama panjang loh. Yaaa, yang pasti ide absurd penamaan kucing ini ya siapa lagi kalo bukan nyokap gue -_- (Namanya Bambang Sumpono & Tatiana Ilonka! Hella cool yet so awkward-_-) Well, gue sih dulu lebih sering main sama Pinom. Tilon jahat sih, suka nyakar :'''< 


Gue inget banget, dulu tiap pulang sekolah, gue pasti nyariin Pinom di setiap sudut rumah gue. Setelah ketemu, gue gendong dan gue pun main bareng doski sepuas-puasnya. Enak ya jaman sd, gak pusing mikirin apa-apa. And it would be much happier when you have a cute & lovely pet as your besties. Gue jarang main bareng anak tetangga gue. Males. Jadi ya temen gue pas masih kecil itu ya si Pinom ini.


Haaaaah.


Tapi, di suatu hari yang naas, Pinom ketabrak mobil. Pinom mati. Mati. Gak kembali lagi
Gue sedih banget. Masa-masa sd gue pun berubah jadi masa-masa forever alone sampe skrng. Sedih.


......Okay.
Daripada gue galau mikirin Pinom mending langsung aja ya. Iseng, lagi-lagi pake Corel Photo-Paint + Adobe Photoshop. Thanks to you, Corel. Enjoy!




Cat-gasm.
Dec 30 2011.
Corel-Adobe.

PS : Pinom, aku kangen :'''<

14/11/11 0

Self-Contemplation3

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , , , , , , ,

Hi,fellas. I write this post in a dark,cloudy day. Alone. Mom & sister are going to the sprmrkt and I have nothing to do. You know, being alone is what I really need now. I like how silence can make me feel relax & the sound of thunder & rain --- it's just perfectly fit.

Last Friday & Saturday, I joined a debate competition. It's really frustrating! Yea, 'cause I know I have no debate experiences before & even can't speak English fluently. Ngomong inggris yg becus aja gue msh belom khatam, gimana kalo disuruh debat di depan khalayak ramai. And just so you knooow aja nih ye, whenever get nervous, I always feel wanna puke everything in my tummy =_= Weird 'aight but yea dat's da true.


Dan, menghadapi kompetisi kayak begini nih bikin kebiasaan gue ini makin-makin :''''' tapi yaaa alhamdulillah bgt sih finally I've going through these madness. We didn't make it to the final. Ya iyalah, gue juga sadar diri kali. Gue, Andine dan Anin juga udah berusaha semaksimal mungkin dan gue rasa kita udah bagus kok. Tapi memang tidak sebagus itu. Gak sebagus mereka yg passed to the final. Dan gue juga gak terlalu berambisi utk menang. I didn't even plan to survive! :$ Berhasil di ronde 1 sama 2 aja udah alhamdulillah. Yang penting, ini semua bisa jadi pengalaman muohohoho :D


Actually, ada satu kalimat yg diucapkan orang ini dan masih terus terngiang *halah* di otak gue.


'Gue selalu yakin dan percaya kalo apapun yg diberikan Allah pasti memang yg terbaik buat kita. Jadi ya... God knows best.'









Wow. Kamu benar. God really knows the best for us. Terima kasih utk kata2 mutiara (?) yg kamu katakan, Anin.  Sedang terbayang masalah lain yg ada di kepala gue dan tiba2 kata2 ini bikin masalah di kepala jadi sirna,ilang dan bikin tenang. Really made my day, you know. Thanks :)


Smell ya later, guise. Ciao!

07/11/11 0

Self-Contemplation2

By Aulia A. Dhianti in , , ,

This week is just another tough week in my life.
For anybody who thinks that Social students are not really studying, have a mercy high school life &amp and have no crappy homeworks, well I suggest you to think again carefully for thousand times or more, eat that shit and just stfu.


You know, we all get those crappy homeworks too. Or probably we got more homeworks than you, cynical science ppl. Let's face this. Science students may have more difficult subjects in their class. But we, as Social students, have more homeworks than you do. It's kinda worth it 'aight? So stop judging & underestimates us. The social students. Those whom you guys calls 'stoopid' or 'bunch of lazy moron who keeps going to school for nothing'.


Okay. I should stop being emotional right here. *tee-hee*
Well, my high school life was tough. I can feel the pressure everyday & it kinda stressed me out. Actually, it's not about the subjects that difficult. It's more about the class. The competitive class. I want to get the 'top 20 ranks' so badly 'cause of the fakkin chance to get umptn's invitation. Please God :'''(


One of my bad habit is always overthinking at something and the thoughts are always bring me to the super unhealthy obsession---in this case, the pressure to get a good or perfect score. At first, I may think this obsession or ambition was okay but when I failed on Maths or Religions subject, both of them are my blind spots, I overthought about it & this kinda stressed me out & and even depressed me out 'cause I think I may not get that 'top 20 ranks'. Then, I realized. This is not healthy. I need some refreshing things. I've tried but it's not working.


Actually I'm not the typical girl who likes to always share my stories in extrovert ways. You may say I'm an introvert or anything. But please, anyone? Help me.




PS : this post is kinda lame but i just don't know what to do and it all was blowing up & voila!


Biar ada gambarnya -_- Panda-nya lagi stres loh ._.

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